Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Time

I bought a Groupon for a massage and as is often the case, there are strings attached, the massage comes with a sales pitch.  Only it wasn't a pushy sales pitch at all.  The massage is at a chiropractors clinic.  I began thinking about my insurance (it only pays for 12 sessions a year) and when it ran out and when it reset and then it hit me ...
It was over a year ago that I was seeing Dr. Nate. How long had I been suffering before I decided to go to Nate?  And I've just had another anniversary.  It was sort of demoralizing to realize how long I've been suffering with no solution in sight.



Keppra

The Verapamil was a no go.  Perhaps I was being overly optimistic that it would work.  Perhaps I am still overly optimistic that anything will work.  Not ready to give up hope yet (although I do have my days).

Tried Keppra for 8 weeks.  I experienced virtually no change.  I look back on my journal and I see a week where I was headache free, but I think that it may have been a reporting error more than anything else.  I was transitioning into a new job, while still working at my old job and I think I just forgot to always log when I had a headache and it's severity.  (It's hard enough to remember when I don't have life changes happening.)

Called the doctor last week to report that the Keppra wasn't working and I was ready for something else.  When he prescribed the Keppra 9 or so weeks ago he wanted me to know that we hadn't quite exhausted all of our options.  But that he completely understood if I chose to pursue another avenue with another doctor.  I thought that was nice of him.  When he found out I had visited the horrible doctor at the University (the so-called "expert") I felt a little like I'd betrayed him so this was nice to hear.  I know, it's silly of me, but when I've been seeing someone for over a year - even in a professional manner like this - I feel some sort of loyalty to him/her.

Keppra dosage has been upped.  I guess that was his next plan of attack.  Will it work?  I'm not one bit optimistic about it (although I admittedly refilled the prescription anyway).  Looks like I'm doctor shopping again.  What avenue to try next?